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DAY 15 OF OIP .

Hello (:

Feeling really sian right now . ):
I don’t know why my mood is … :/
I’m browsing through Twitter and saw SP students talking about their GPA.
How can GPA even be trending? So many people talking their GPA? .__.
That freaking reminds me of my fucking crappy shit ass GPA. ):
I’m fucking disappointed with myself. The more I think about it, the lousier I feel.
I suck so much that I just want to jump off the building.

That day when I got back my results, I’m just faking it. Looking like I don’t give a shit about it. I wanted to breakdown immediately but there’s a freaking company visit. Totally not looking forward and not enjoying it. Should I say that I’m proud of myself because I didn’t breakdown when Nat asked if I’m okay. Actually, I’m not okay. If I said that I’m not okay, when I explain myself I’ll absolutely breakdown. I’m thankful to have a friend like him. (:

Hate it when people start talking about their results. I just don’t want to be reminded of my crappy GPA. I don’t want to talk about my GPA. Sometimes, they just causally or randomly say something about their “lousy” results. I feel so insulted. I don’t like people to talk about their GPA. I think I’m just too sensitive. I also don’t want them to talk about the subjects. The subjects just annoy me a lot. I don’t know why people want to talk about it or use the knowledge purposely. Showing off their knowledge and then tell people how much they get for the subject. Do you know that your action is annoying? You can just keep it to yourself. I’m wondering why I even told you my results. Then you’ll just causally tell people about my results. Did I even say that you can share it with people? Maybe you didn’t do it on purpose but I’m just affected by it. I don’t know what’s wrong with me but my emotions are overloading.

Cried over my lousy results ):
I feel so lousy again . sian sian sian . ):
Why am I like that ? ):

Overflowing emotions. This is bad or good?

Bye bye. I feel like crying but I should stop.

DAY 15 OF OIP .

Hello (:

Feeling really sian right now . ):
I don’t know why my mood is … :/
I’m browsing through Twitter and saw SP students talking about their GPA.
How can GPA even be trending? So many people talking their GPA? .__.
That freaking reminds me of my fucking crappy shit ass GPA. ):
I’m fucking disappointed with myself. The more I think about it, the lousier I feel.
I suck so much that I just want to jump off the building.

That day when I got back my results, I’m just faking it. Looking like I don’t give a shit about it. I wanted to breakdown immediately but there’s a freaking company visit. Totally not looking forward and not enjoying it. Should I say that I’m proud of myself because I didn’t breakdown when Nat asked if I’m okay. Actually, I’m not okay. If I said that I’m not okay, when I explain myself I’ll absolutely breakdown. I’m thankful to have a friend like him. (:

Hate it when people start talking about their results. I just don’t want to be reminded of my crappy GPA. I don’t want to talk about my GPA. Sometimes, they just causally or randomly say something about their “lousy” results. I feel so insulted. I don’t like people to talk about their GPA. I think I’m just too sensitive. I also don’t want them to talk about the subjects. The subjects just annoy me a lot. I don’t know why people want to talk about it or use the knowledge purposely. Showing off their knowledge and then tell people how much they get for the subject. Do you know that your action is annoying? You can just keep it to yourself. I’m wondering why I even told you my results. Then you’ll just causally tell people about my results. Did I even say that you can share it with people? Maybe you didn’t do it on purpose but I’m just affected by it. I don’t know what’s wrong with me but my emotions are overloading.

Cried over my lousy results ):
I feel so lousy again . sian sian sian . ):
Why am I like that ? ):

Overflowing emotions. This is bad or good?

Bye bye. I feel like crying but I should stop.

Hello.
Day 12 of OIP .
I think OIP is getting crappy .
Today got back my results . I didn't want to check my results but I checked it in the end .
Well well well, what can I say ... ?
I'm like shaking when I'm typing my student number and password . When I checked my results I feel like hiding somewhere and don't come out .
I'm disappointed . seriously, disappointed . ):
Tried to hide my emotions . Since, I break down yesterday .
I think I'm easily affected by what others' actions and words . Others get good results and I'm here with this crappy results .
I can't believe it, it's like ... :/ the difference is HUGE, HUGE , HUGE , HUGE !
Maybe it's fated . This is a bad week . ):
Lousy BCOMM results, Lousy GPA for sem 2 .
I dont even want to know what other people get. It will just affect me and knowing what others get don't make me feel better or make my results better .
From my previous post, I can only study/work HARDER .

Went to coke cola company . It's just like that . -___-
Went for a walk and took photos + drink coke . HAHA
Then it's the end of the day . That's all . Seriously, that's all . :/
Wake up so early and it ends in like 2 hours ? 1 hour to travel . What is this ? .___.

Okay, I'm feeling better now .
Cried in the hotel while Whatsapp-ing my friends .
I feel better telling them . They gave me support when I need them . Love them ! <3
Emotions overload . What's wrong with me ? Hmm...

Camping in the hotel . Meow .
I want to watch my drama but it's not loading . ):
No, I MUST DO PROJECTS ! I'M A MUGGER . HARDCORE MUGGER NOW ON . GO GO GO .
LOVE ME OR HATE ME . I DONT CARE . (THIS IS RANDOM)

Bye bye.
It's time to work HARDER AND HARDER AND HARDER .
GPA 4.0 ALL THE WAY . THIS IS THE WAY MANZXZXZXZXZXZ ~ :D

Hello !
Day 11 of OIP .
Still coping well... I guess .

Oh, got back Business message result .
Well, I don't think I'll get high grades .
27/40 . I know I suck . Whatever .

Actually, I dont think I can do anything about it .
It's already over . What I can do is work harder for my project or other assessment .
what can I actually do ? Getting sad over it ? Who won't be disappointed getting this results ?
I think everyone will but what can I do ? Telling the whole world that I'm sad ? It doesn't help, people can't do anything about it .
The only thing they say is "Cheer up! You can do better next time round."
I dont think I need all of that .

Okay, I cried. Not that I'm really sad about my results . I'm surely disappointed . Who won't be ?
Her comment or her personal feelings affected me .
I feel so fragile . I feel weak . why ? Idk .
I don't think crying actually help but I can't control . I don't know what I'm doing .

Okay, I just need to buck up . No more fooling around .
I need to play hard and work harder .

Bye Bye .

Hello . This is Tan Hui Juan reporting news from Fujian - Xiamen (China)
By the way, 我的名是慧娟， 慧娟的慧，慧娟的娟。哈哈。酷毙了。哈哈哈哈哈哈！
The weather here is cold . It's colder than I expect . ): I just my clothes are just nice but not very warm . ): Well, I can't do anything about it . When I go to the shopping area, I don't feel like shopping . When I'm not there, I feel like shopping . What is wrong with me ? .__.

It's day 10 ! 25 more days to go .
wow, so fast ? only 25 more days to the end of OIP and 2 of my modules .
Hope that I can do well for my 2 modules .

If I'm not wrong, I'm getting back my results . oh my gawd .
I don't want to know my results... ): My results confirm like shit one. why ACC people so smart ? ):

Actually, I wanted to post some photos but it just don't want to load . ):
Oh well, you will get to see it in facebook after 25 or more days . HAHA

I'm feeling very full now . ):
I ate a bread + chicken . I got a feeling that i'll 爆炸！
WHAT AM I SO GREEDY ? OINK OINK .
Now, i got 2 breads for breakfast . siao ah .

Okay, I got no idea what to post.
today is just a boring day ?
IS lesson, chinese business culture ? That's totally CQ and my group research on China for our final project . this is .... :/
Went to _______ for lunch, it's okay . I think other place is nicer . HAHA
SIAO SIAO SIAO . To get to the place, need to walk pass a wet market. It's so scary, the chicken, ducks, fishes and etc are all alive . o:
There's dogs there too . They are cute but scary ! ):

Bye bye . Off to watch an old taiwan drama (?)
Dont miss me too much. I'll post when I feel like it . LOL
P/s: this is a wordy post (my posts are all wordy) . actually, i wanted to post pictures but it doesn't load . ):

** Just found out that my blog looks differently in IE and FF. I dont know about chrome . HAHA